Sharing whats on my heart

Why is it so hard sometimes to sit down and spend quality time with the Lord? I mean for crying out loud, everything I've been blessed with came and comes from Him. And I can't carve out 10 minutes to read His word or have some prayer time. Shame on me. This may be my struggle, not yours. I don't think I am alone in this though. 

I sat down during nap time a few days ago and on my left was my bible & devotional book and on my right was the TV remote. I paused. This pause was like the Lord speaking to me. He was longing, for me to choose him over the Blue Bloods reruns I like to watch after I have done all my house crap while my children nap. 

Is that even a choice?

Blue Bloods or God?  I mean really! 

It shouldn't be. 

So you know what, I opened my devotional and read. It spoke directly to my life and current decisions my husband and I have been having to make. It was the Lord speaking through His word…to me. To me…the one who forgets to open her bible, who prays daily- but sometimes it is more of a conversation then quiet time and who is constantly sinning and asking for forgiveness. He continually forgives and then teaches me more. 

I write this because I don't think I am alone in this. The devil is a clever fella. He knows that as a tired mom, who always has little hands touching her, zero alone time, always has dishes to do, or laundry to fold, bathrooms to clean and meals to make…that nap time is sacred. He knows that he can tempt me away from my time with God. 

Don't let the devil win your time. I am no longer letting him win mine. Sitting down and spending minutes with God- feeling loved, learning, and challenging myself to grow is so much more important. 

If we spend time with Him he will hear us. He will see us. He will bless that time.